This is a development instance of xesite. Things here are probably unfinished or in drafting. Don't take anything here super seriously. If you want to share this to an online aggregator, please don't. Drafts are not finalized yet for a reason. Please don't be the reason I need to implement more advanced security than just obscurity.

Book Release: Musings from Within

Read time in minutes: 3

I am happy to announce that I have successfully created an eBook compilation of the best of the posts on this blog plus a bunch of writing I have never before made public, and the result is now available for purchase on and the Kindle Store (TODO(Xe): add kindle link here when it gets approved) for USD$5. This book is the product of 5 years of effort writing, getting better at writing, failing at writing and everything inbetween.

I have collected the following essays, poems, recipes and stories:

  • Against Label Permanence
  • A Letter to Those Who Bullied Me
  • All There is is Now
  • Alone
  • Barrier
  • Bricks
  • Chaos Magick Debugging
  • Chicken Stir Fry
  • Creator’s Mission
  • Death
  • Died to Save Me
  • Don't Look Into the Light
  • Every Koan Ever
  • Final Chapter
  • Gratitude
  • h
  • How HTTP Requests Work
  • Humanity
  • I Love
  • Instant Pot Quinoa Taco Bowls
  • Instant Pot Spaghetti
  • I Put Words on this Webpage so You Have to Listen to Me Now
  • I Remember
  • It Is Free
  • Listen to Your Rubber Duck
  • MrBeast is Postmodern Gold
  • My Experience Cursing Out God
  • Narrative of Sickness
  • One Day
  • Plurality-Driven Development
  • Practical Kasmakfa
  • Questions
  • Second Go Around
  • Self
  • Sorting Time
  • Tarot for Hackers
  • The Gears and The Gods
  • The Origin of h
  • The Service is Already Down
  • The Story of Hol
  • The Sumerian Creation Myth
  • Toast Sandwich Recipe
  • Untitled Cyberpunk Furry Story
  • We Exist
  • What It’s Like to Be Me
  • When Then Zen
  • When Then Zen: Anapana
  • When Then Zen: Wonderland Immersion
  • You Are Fine

Most of these are available on this site, but a good portion of them are not available anywhere else. There's poetry about shamanism, stories about reincarnation, koans and more.

I am also uploading eBook files to my Patreon page. Anyone who supports me for $1 or more has immediate access to the DRM-free ePub, MOBIPocket and PDF files of this book.

If you are facing financial difficulties, want to read my book and just simply cannot afford it, please contact me and I will send you my book free of charge.

Feedback and reviews of this book are more than welcome. If you decide to tweet or toot about it, please use the hashtag #musingsfromwithin so I can collect them into future updates to the description of the store pages, as well as assemble them below.

Enjoy the book! My hope is that you get as much from it as I've gotten from writing these things for the last 5 or so years. Here's to five more. I'll likely create another anthology/collection of them at that point.

This article was posted on M07 28 2020. Facts and circumstances may have changed since publication. Please contact me before jumping to conclusions if something seems wrong or unclear.

Tags: release book musingsfromwithin

This post was not WebMentioned yet. You could be the first!

The art for Mara was drawn by Selicre.

The art for Cadey was drawn by ArtZora Studios.

Some of the art for Aoi was drawn by @Sandra_Thomas01.